I was really hesitant at first. Grandma is Wyatt's favorite person in the world, and I knew he would love it. But, I've only left Wyatt over night twice. And each time it was just for the evening and I picked him up first thing in the morning. Two nights seemed so long to me! But, I finally agreed.
Sometimes mommy just needs a little break to be something other than just mommy, right? Especially after the past several months we've had. Brad and I don't live together, currently. It's difficult to chase a very busy (almost) three year old around when you feel like death yourself. And even harder to care for a very sick kiddo on your own when you are also sick. It's just a viscous cycle. So, I finally gave in.
Teams were Friday/Saturday and the guys took 9th, I believe. It was a great time, even if I will be dreaming about pool for weeks to come.
We headed back home bright and early Sunday morning for the 2.5 hour drive back to town to pick up Wyatt and head down to Fort Collins, CO for Brad's great nephew's 1st birthday! It was beautiful there and we had a great time with family.
The Birthday Boy |
Daddy's Boy |
I just am not getting better. In fact, I'm worse. I'm going on 6 months of a horrible, deep cough that just will not go away. 40 minutes, tops, of sleep at one time before I wake up with an awful coughing episode. After last night's lack of sleep and my painful chest, I just felt like I can't handle this much longer.
I got into the doctor first thing this morning which resulted in this:
We took some x-rays to rule out pneumonia. I had a long go of pneumonia last year, and I'm pretty confident it will be negative. But, better safe than sorry. I should know the results early afternoon and we'll discuss treatment options from there. However, I was told, regardless of the results, I will be going on a long run of prednisone. Again. This time for about a month - slowly weening myself off.
I'm tired of my fingers and ankles looking like they did when I was 9 months pregnant! I'm tired of being swollen and the scale going up. But, I can't get where I want to be until I can kick whatever is going on here. If a month of prednisone is what I have to do, then so be it.
Once I'm finally better, they want me to get in for pulmonary testing. Might as well add asthma to my list of conditions, eh?
One thing I noticed, my BP was in normal range today! Very rare for me due to my Lupus. So big win there!
This quote has become a favorite of mine through the past few years. I've hit a bit of a set back, a long - long 6 month long one. But it's not the end of the journey. I feel as though I'm going to be starting over at this point. Honestly, oh well if I have to start from the beginning. I'm not giving up. I haven't given up. I will meet all my goals: weightloss, fitness and beyond. It's just taking longer than I ever imagined or planned. Sometimes, God has other plans. And who am I to question him?
Oh Tiffany, I am so sorry! :( Promise me for this month you will try to use your scale ONLY to make sure the swelling doesn't get dangerous, not for weight purposes. You are right; weight takes a back seat now to just getting you healthy.
ReplyDeleteAs a person who learned the hard way she was allergic to menthol, have you tried inhalers WITHOUT menthol? Might want to give that a go. ;)
I hope this clears up soon. It sucks to be SO sick. I've had pleurisy a couple of times...I know.
p.s. that is a REALLY old blog button of mine to the right. Wanna update it? New one at my sidebar. :) (thanks.)