Last Thanksgiving my parents were still together. Dylan lived at home; still in high school. Wyatt was a little toddler instead of a ferocious lion cub. My youngest niece wasn't even crawling yet. Relationships in my personal life were in a different place. And me personally? I was roughly 30 pounds heavier, very sick and very unhappy.
This time last year, is when I first got that fire to workout and get healthy. Unfortunately, a year ago this week, I found out I had pneumonia that ended up taking a couple months to fully recover from. That was a rough time for me. My doctor's wanted to hospitalize me, but I continued to refuse. There was no one that could care for Wyatt while I was in the hospital. So, I continued to work full time and be full time mommy while trying to recover. This, no doubt, prolonged the pneumonia. But, I did what I had to do for my son. Looking back, I am so grateful for that time. Struggling to breath on a daily basis. Struggling to carry my son up and down the stairs. Struggling to give him a bath. Being unable to get on the floor and play with him... it hit me like a ton of bricks. If not just for myself, I had to get healthy for Wyatt.
Now, I'm about 30 pounds lighter. I'm a far more attentive mother and friend. Most importantly, I'm a much happier version of myself.
Left: Thanksgiving 2012. Right: Thanksgiving 2013 |
In the past, I would have thrown caution to the wind. If I can't be perfect, why try at all?
Now, I understand that sometimes other things have to come first. Sometimes, I can't be perfect. Perfection is boring... and impossible to achieve. If you set out to be perfect all the time, all you're going to find is disappointment. Trust me, I've been there. Find joy in your journey. Find a balance that works for you, and you will get there!
Perfection might be the goal...but that's why goals sometimes suck. We are all human, which means being decidedly unperfect. But each of us gets to decide how unperfect is okay. ;)
ReplyDeleteFinding balance is something I really struggle with and something I want to achieve so badly.
ReplyDeleteGood job finding the balance! That is what is important in this journey. Life is going to throw us some roadblocks and we have to figure out how to keep moving!
ReplyDeleteNSVs are the way to go! weight loss is a slow and steady process and although we want to see results NOW! it's best to change your lifestyle to keep the weight off for good. when you change your perspective and remember that the things you're doing - eating clean/exercising - are doing AMAZING things internally that you can't see (just yet), it's easier to keep focused and on track. when i used to get frustrated that i wasn't seeing results, i would just remember that it's my organs that keep me alive and healthy, not my dress size.
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You look GREAT! Great job.
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